Stupidity comes in all kinds of shapes.
Bitter. Bitter bitter. It's always bitter to stay awake alone after midnight. And now, it's almost 4 in the morning and I'm still here. Feeling. BITTER.

I am more emotional than I usually am now although I've always been an emosaurus. My well of patience seems to dry up pretty quick recently. Some people say, that's not even a well. HAHA. In another way it reads, don't try to communicate with me unless you want to be cruelly murdered.

Everything that happens around me just pisses me off. I'm not sure if i'm seeking for a reason to throw my tantrum at, or to submerge my frustration over not being able to be at home. AT FESTIVE SEASON. I'm actually, more to, SAD. :'(

Constantly going on facebook is not really healthy for me at this time. Reading people's statuses about them being home, eating home cooked food, meeting all family members and getting ready for CNY turns me into a green-eyed monster. I'm so so so jealous that I couldn't shake what I'm feeling off. I get upset and I just want to be alone. AND DRINK AND GET FUCKED UP. Even when I see people updating about spring cleaning. SEE HOW PATHETIC I AM. T___T

With this frustrating emotion in me, people around me have to try all kinds of ways to provoke me. DAFUQ IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE?!?! Do you know what kind of people irritates me? People who think that they're the coolest on earth and try to shove things to my face. FUCK YOU. When you're nobody to me, your words are basically nothing to me. So you think I need a change?? You go fucking change first by NOT TALKING TO ME. JESUS CHRIST.

To offend people in all kinds of way thinking that you're cool is not stylish. AT ALL. Just so you know. When people feel offended, you claimed that people don't know to take jokes? OH WOW HAHA AND KUDOS TO YOUR AWESOME JOKES. Everyone else is stupid to NOT understand you. WOW.

One more thing that gets on my nerve, people who is unexplainably selfish who does things that jeopardises others' life. And don't act like you don't know that you're doing that because you fucking do it deliberately. THIS IS SERIOUSLY UNACCEPTABLE!

Why do I discover the ugliness in people like NOW? Why do you appear to be so angelic when I first knew you? Why do you appear to be so nice when I first met you? WHY. ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHH. *pulls hair

Maybe these people help me to grow in life. But I'm not growing because I still get angry in split seconds. Le sigh. I still feel lucky to have had some awesome friends who treat me with patience nonetheless. I love all of you you and you. :)

Drop that. No more rage.

Abrupt change.

I just talked to momma. I miss home. Like, again. :'(